No trigger warnings for this one, unless you are triggered by raw, unfiltered sappiness.
I know that mostly I use this blog as an outlet for my fears and complaints, but heck! I am feeling good today. I've actually been feeling good for a couple of weeks, which is a long stretch for me, and instead of feeling despair that the rug is going to get pulled out under me, I'm going to just bask in the glow of goodness as long as I can, understanding that everything is temporary and life is what you make of it and something about lemons and lemonades. Can't spell "gratitude" without "platitude" or something else.
Wow - I really do not know how to write a positive intro. I AM OUT OF PRACTICE, PEOPLE.
My point, if I have one, is that this whole "feeling good" thing has created a really cool space for me to feel gratitude. It's something I've tried to do the whole time on this journey, and I often managed it in bits and spurts, but now it's been happening for hours a day and it is just the most wonderful feeling to be able to sit and bask in the love that so many have shown me and my family since my diagnosis.
The people who brought meals. Who sent care packages. Who helped with yardwork and housework. I APPRECIATE YOU.
The people who sent messages. Who shared recommendations for entertainment and education. Who sent memes and adorable photos of pets and kids. I APPRECIATE YOU.
The people who touched base. Who sent word through mutual friends of their thoughts and best wishes. Who didn't know what to say but didn't hold that against me. I APPRECIATE YOU.
The people who offered a listening ear, a helping hand, a friendly voice. I APPRECIATE YOU.
The people who have braved open mic nights to support my comedy/advocacy. The people reading my blog. The people leaving comments on my posts. I APPRECIATE YOU.
Cancer is a lonely thing. But y'all made it a little less lonely. And while I didn't always have it in me to say it at the time, or even to truly feel it, know that I am really, sincerely, wholly grateful.
Cancer took a lot from me. But so many people have given me so much back. And while it's easier (and funnier) to complain, and I can tend to be a "the glass is half full and maybe it's POISON" type of person, all these acts of love can make even the grinchiest of hearts grow.
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| Actual picture of me while writing this post. |
